So what will happen then in four, five, six weeks time?
Will my family be evicted and forced to live on the street or will some miraculous solution save us? And what is my responsibility insofar as causing a miraculous solution to manifest?
Should I begin to do something that doesn’t feel right in my heart just because I have run out of money?
In other words, does the apparent severity of my situation necessitate compromising my beliefs and values? Or do I simply continue to do just as I have been doing for the last three years – that is, everything I can do to align myself with God/Love and the perfect/purposeful Universe?
I mean, if God is truly the loving, benevolent, compassionate and perfect/purposeful Creator that I know Him to be, doesn’t it make perfect/purposeful sense that this same Creator will always provide me with a means to support myself and my family when I align myself with His will? Or have I completely lost my way on this one?
Am I being outrageously obstinate, or incredibly naïve? Am I a spiritual Pollyanna? Is it also possible that I just think that I am in alignment (and that I have achieved some semblance of understanding) when truly, somewhere along the way my understanding has taken a calamitous turn into delusion?
Clearly, I see two choices before me:
I can continue to trust in my cumulative experience and receiving, or throw in the towel and go looking for a job – any job – just something to get me through this period of financial stress.
Well, believe what you will – but I see this period in my life as a test of faith. And given all that I have experienced and received, I am unable to abandon my beliefs/values/understanding (even if temporarily) just because the material plane continues to persist in reflecting lack and challenge. Thus, I am asking for a miracle. And I have no doubt that a miracle will soon take place.
All is well.
For my continuing story, see this link.
(For the previous story, see this link.)