Hi. My name is Mathew. I’m a sensitive, a channeler, and a film producer. Welcome to my blog, The Life Intended where I share my channeled messages and personal experiences regarding all things spirit and healing.
My Shocking Introduction to the World of Spirit
Back in the early ’80’s, I entered adulthood with absolutely no interest in spirituality or religion, enamored with science, and quite skeptical about anything that couldn’t be proven. But between the ages of 21 and 23, everything changed when three incredible spirit encounters occurred within a two year period that radically altered my perspective of the unseen world.
In the first incident, an experiment with automatic writing led to an undeniable encounter with a ghost.
In the second incident, a surprising emotional breakdown oddly progressed into a high fever and a fight for my life with a spirit being I later came to think of as The Grim Reaper.
In the third incident, I was blessed to have the most miraculous encounter with a beautiful spirit being I innately recognized as Jesus.
Perhaps this all sounds a little incredible? Now, just imagine how these experiences might have been received before the days of personal computers and the internet if I had openly spoken about them. That said, after my encounter with Jesus, I couldn’t help but share some information with my immediate family, but as for everyone else, I mentioned very little if anything at all. For one thing, I knew my experiences and explanations weren’t likely to be well-received by the people I knew. More importantly, however, given that I was in the early stages of a career in the film industry, the last thing I wanted was to be unfairly judged as strange or mentally unstable. Consequently, I did what I thought was prudent at the time. Namely, I did my best to conduct myself as if nothing unusual had happened.
A Painfully Long Dark Night of The Soul
As the years rolled by, however, I became more and more confused as the spiritual side of my life seemed to take a back seat while I made advancements in my career, got married, and started a family. For the most part, this was because throughout those years, I was never able to shake this nagging feeling that there was something I was supposed to do with the message that Jesus had shared with me. But what? Unbeknownst to me, I didn’t fully understand the message, nor did I realize that I was hindered by mental and emotional wounding from childhood. (Unfortunately, it would take years before I made those discoveries.) In the meantime, as much I tried to forget the visitation from Jesus and get on with my life, I just couldn’t. Consequently, my confusion gradually developed into chronic depression, as well as periodic episodes of anger and frustration.
Help On The Way
Thankfully (and finally), after 15 years of struggle, I experienced a breakthrough one day when I accidentally discovered my Higher Self. Having kept a journal since the ghost incident in 1982, it had never occurred to me to review those journals. But, one day in 1999, something compelled me to do just that, and that’s when I discovered a wise aspect of my subconscious mind that had presented itself whenever I had resorted to stream-of-consciousness writing in the past — basically, an exercise where I wrote down, without censoring, anything and everything that rolled off my mind.
And so it came to pass for the next two years, although I wasn’t the clearest of channels (I was still dealing with episodes of depression and anger), I continued to channel my Higher Self using stream-of-consciousness until one day a second breakthrough occurred: the introduction of my spirit guide. Although he told me that he had no name, and that where he resided (in another galaxy) names were unnecessary, I wasn’t comfortable speaking to him without a name. (I say “him” because his energy felt masculine to me.) Thus, I named him Z, and he was fine with that. And our relationship developed over the months that followed.
About a year later, following a channeling session in which I asked Z questions about angels (at the time, I thought that angels and guides were the same thing), a third breakthrough occurred when Z introduced me to Archangel Michael, whom he referred to as my guardian angel. Well, from that moment on, the spiritual guidance took a noticeable leap while at the same time, I experienced several more breakthroughs (or awakenings if you will — many of which I have written about in this blog). Essentially, I was encouraged to follow my heart, to be the most loving and present person I could be, and to do so without expectation of outcome or return — which by the way, is much easier said than done! 🙂
A Cautionary Tale
As time marched on, I was grateful for Michael’s guidance as lessons on the subject of Love were welcome in light of the depression, anger and frustration that I had been living with for so many years. Consequently, channeling both Michael and Z continued on a regular basis until Michael surprised me one day when he casually mentioned that sensitivity to spirit beings was both a blessing and a vulnerability. What that meant, I hadn’t a clue. But, over the days and weeks that followed, after several encounters with negative beings (also referred to in this blog as dark beings, or dark forces), I began to understand. I also began to understand that lessons on Love (lessons that usually involved some from of cleansing, purification, and disentanglement — in general, awakening), were far from easy, and not without opposition and struggle.
Enter, The Guardians
One day in 2006 I was surprised to channel a source that identified itself as “The Guardians of Light and Love.” (Later, “The Guardians of the Light” or just “The Guardians.”) This source came thru sporadically at first. But, by early 2008, The Guardians had become my primary source — as they are today.
To Sum Things Up
To say the least, it’s been a long and challenging journey. However, in spite of the hardships, if I could go back in time and change something, I wouldn’t change a thing. Because, if not for the challenges and my sensitivity, and my desire to know the truth, I would never have married my amazing wife, had the beautiful children we have, discovered that spirit is real, know that a meaningful personal relationship could be kindled and developed with our guides and angels, or know that the heart is so much more than a pump that circulates blood. That said, my life today is far from a cake walk as evidently lessons on Love never stop. Nevertheless, I continue to seek the truth, and I continue to strive to be the best person I can be, because well, that seems to be my nature. Just as it also seems to be my nature to record and share my experiences, insights, and channeled guidance in an open, honest, and transparent manner.
Blessings and Namaste,
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